hello. feel free to delete this message if you want to, and if you do, i'm really really sorry! i know you don't know me and it's probably really weird that some stranger went to butt in someone's stuff and started spouting these. but please know that all i'm going to say is genuine. i meant this all. i don't even know what you're going through and i'm just a stranger and all but... if there may be a lot of things that drain you silently, thoughts that provoke you badly, life struggles that have been there for so long. you deal with so many frustrations, fight with inner demons, survive through harrowing situations. i want to say that you're honestly amazing for still being here even if every breath feels so painful— i want to say that everything is going to be okay someday, but it sounds a tad too selfish when i can't see you up close. i don't even know you.
because telling people they're good when they're not, does not help that much. telling people that they shouldn't do this and that because they'll be okay does not help because those people know they're still not doing okay. those people know they're not good enough. those people know they're not unique because there's someone in the world who's just better than them. so many people come through this tough time but no one seems to be able to convey the right message. it's not about being good enough for other people, it's about being good enough for yourself. the one thing you have to think of yourself is that you don't have to be good enough for everyone else, if you don't feel like you're good enough for yourself.
but undoing all that is hard, when every breath still feels so heavy and painful; everything must be so stressful for you, and despite you trying your best, something else, or maybe something you thought you had conquered before started resurfacing again. it's heartbreaking when such experiences drives us to feel that we're incapable of being normal or loved. until you're left thinking maybe you deserve it after all. though nobody should feel that way, that in itself is painful and feels exhausting to deal with everyday. you must've feel so broken inside...
but you know, there's this cool japanese technique about fixing stuff. it's called kintsugi where broken plates were repaired with gold. they sure aren't the same as before, but became something else just as beautiful. oftentimes, beautiful isn't just about its physical appearance. because the most beautiful things are fragile and easily broken, hurt, destroyed. and you know? if something's exterior have been ruptured so much it deems unrecognizable, there's always the inside. the true beauty is in the inside. but the sad part is that some people, perhaps even you, can't acknowledge this part of ourselves because they're already in too deep of telling the mirror's reflection, "you're ugly. you deserve this pain. you're nothing."
but, that's not you at all. it's hard not to mind these thoughts. sometimes when you're in too deep with such opinions of yourself, it creates an illusion for you to think that you're what you say you are. it also creates a chasm, which sucks all the good things other people say into oblivion because you are too focused on your bad. and it hurts not knowing that you're a lot more wonderful, beautiful and special than you ever give yourself credit for, because it's hard acknowledging that everyone has flaws (even though some people seem so composed through it all). even so, for you to be here despite everything you've gone through, i am so proud of you for still being here, reading this strange message from someone you don't even know.
i may not know you, but i know for sure that you deserve a lot of good things in life. your existence, despite me not knowing you personally, is really wonderful. know that you matter. that you're valid— even though a part of you says you aren't so. let's take some time to heal, though it's hard to be with the circumstances, know that you'll reach a place, or someone, that would make you feel safe. you don’t deserve the bad things that happen to you. you never did, okay? don't make yourself feel guilty about something you can't do, or can't stop, or what people said about you. you might not be perfect, but that's because no one is.
you're a human, you know. humans have limitations, and humans aren't meant to be alone too. that's not how we're made. so that's why you don't have to do this on your own. please allow yourself to take some rests, and take care of yourself, even during the bad days. It's alright to cry. but please please please don't hurt yourself again. you may not feel good today, you may feel inadequate and worthless. life would really suck right now, but truthfully, that is what life is.
THIS IS A SIGN THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT IN THE END IF IT'S STILL NOT OKAY THEN IT'S STILL NOT THE END. because even if i don't even know who you are, i want to see through this with you, i want to see that in the future, you'll be glad you're still hanging on (not in a self-harming way okay??). i'm proud of you always, even with the simplesr things you've accomplished. small progress is a progress. i'll wish all the best for you. you'll be okay, please trust this random person in the internet.
i might just be assuming right now, and though i don't fully grasp how hard your situation is, do know that i want all the good things for you, whoever you may be. i want you to live. but i don't want you to just exist. you deserve to feel alive. you deserve food, pleasure, rest. you deserve the stuff you have and love. you deserve life. you deserve the sky, the sun, the stars and moon above you, to which you look at and think what's good about you. and you know what? it's everything. you deserve everything, even if you think you don't. you can't always be strong. sometimes, being alive is just enough.
please believe me, you'll get there. a good tomorrow is coming, and i'm hoping we all could see it together. ily.
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hello. feel free to delete this message if you want to, and if you do, i'm really really sorry! i know you don't know me and it's probably really weird that some stranger went to butt in someone's stuff and started spouting these. but please know that all i'm going to say is genuine. i meant this all. i don't even know what you're going through and i'm just a stranger and all but... if there may be a lot of things that drain you silently, thoughts that provoke you badly, life struggles that have been there for so long. you deal with so many frustrations, fight with inner demons, survive through harrowing situations. i want to say that you're honestly amazing for still being here even if every breath feels so painful— i want to say that everything is going to be okay someday, but it sounds a tad too selfish when i can't see you up close. i don't even know you.
because telling people they're good when they're not, does not help that much. telling people that they shouldn't do this and that because they'll be okay does not help because those people know they're still not doing okay. those people know they're not good enough. those people know they're not unique because there's someone in the world who's just better than them. so many people come through this tough time but no one seems to be able to convey the right message. it's not about being good enough for other people, it's about being good enough for yourself. the one thing you have to think of yourself is that you don't have to be good enough for everyone else, if you don't feel like you're good enough for yourself.
but undoing all that is hard, when every breath still feels so heavy and painful; everything must be so stressful for you, and despite you trying your best, something else, or maybe something you thought you had conquered before started resurfacing again. it's heartbreaking when such experiences drives us to feel that we're incapable of being normal or loved. until you're left thinking maybe you deserve it after all. though nobody should feel that way, that in itself is painful and feels exhausting to deal with everyday. you must've feel so broken inside...
but you know, there's this cool japanese technique about fixing stuff. it's called kintsugi where broken plates were repaired with gold. they sure aren't the same as before, but became something else just as beautiful. oftentimes, beautiful isn't just about its physical appearance. because the most beautiful things are fragile and easily broken, hurt, destroyed. and you know? if something's exterior have been ruptured so much it deems unrecognizable, there's always the inside. the true beauty is in the inside. but the sad part is that some people, perhaps even you, can't acknowledge this part of ourselves because they're already in too deep of telling the mirror's reflection, "you're ugly. you deserve this pain. you're nothing."
but, that's not you at all. it's hard not to mind these thoughts. sometimes when you're in too deep with such opinions of yourself, it creates an illusion for you to think that you're what you say you are. it also creates a chasm, which sucks all the good things other people say into oblivion because you are too focused on your bad. and it hurts not knowing that you're a lot more wonderful, beautiful and special than you ever give yourself credit for, because it's hard acknowledging that everyone has flaws (even though some people seem so composed through it all). even so, for you to be here despite everything you've gone through, i am so proud of you for still being here, reading this strange message from someone you don't even know.
i may not know you, but i know for sure that you deserve a lot of good things in life. your existence, despite me not knowing you personally, is really wonderful. know that you matter. that you're valid— even though a part of you says you aren't so. let's take some time to heal, though it's hard to be with the circumstances, know that you'll reach a place, or someone, that would make you feel safe. you don’t deserve the bad things that happen to you. you never did, okay? don't make yourself feel guilty about something you can't do, or can't stop, or what people said about you. you might not be perfect, but that's because no one is.
you're a human, you know. humans have limitations, and humans aren't meant to be alone too. that's not how we're made. so that's why you don't have to do this on your own. please allow yourself to take some rests, and take care of yourself, even during the bad days. It's alright to cry. but please please please don't hurt yourself again. you may not feel good today, you may feel inadequate and worthless. life would really suck right now, but truthfully, that is what life is.
THIS IS A SIGN THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT IN THE END IF IT'S STILL NOT OKAY THEN IT'S STILL NOT THE END. because even if i don't even know who you are, i want to see through this with you, i want to see that in the future, you'll be glad you're still hanging on (not in a self-harming way okay??). i'm proud of you always, even with the simplesr things you've accomplished. small progress is a progress. i'll wish all the best for you. you'll be okay, please trust this random person in the internet.
i might just be assuming right now, and though i don't fully grasp how hard your situation is, do know that i want all the good things for you, whoever you may be. i want you to live. but i don't want you to just exist. you deserve to feel alive. you deserve food, pleasure, rest. you deserve the stuff you have and love. you deserve life. you deserve the sky, the sun, the stars and moon above you, to which you look at and think what's good about you. and you know what? it's everything. you deserve everything, even if you think you don't. you can't always be strong. sometimes, being alive is just enough.
please believe me, you'll get there. a good tomorrow is coming, and i'm hoping we all could see it together. ily.